I had two auditions this past week. The first required a great deal of memorization, and I was given 3 days. We were told that only the last four paragraphs would be part of the audition, but I memorized the rest of it because you never know when someone will want to see if you can dance. Dance, monkey, dance!

I really enjoy this casting director because he does not allow his actors to be lazy. He has high expectations. Luckily, I do too. I would much rather go to an audition with a director who expects me to put in the work, because this means he/she also has an appreciation for the work I have put in. And sometimes, it feels like that little bit of appreciation is all you have to take home and motivate you for the next round. Boy, I sound cheery, don’t I? Just thoughtful…

It was a “good” audition, but I call every audition “good.” “Good” means I have learned something valuable, it was worth my time, or, sometimes, my performance was excellent! But for all you lovely people who support me and unashamedly tell people what I do, there is so much more to an audition that knowing the lines. Or the part. Or the story. Or being teachable. Or having the right look. It is a combination of all of these things, or so I’m told. I have yet to book anything, but that is not always a reflection on my performance.

When you sit in the waiting room, you can hear everything that is going on in the audition room. So I heard three women go before me and they were really good. So much so, that I was sitting there thinking, “How do these people decide when they have at least three women so far who are excellent?” And that was just from hearing their voices. Spot on. And my performance was on par. I can say with complete confidence that I would do an excellent job for this company and they would be so glad they worked with me. But, I bet it’s the same for those other women. So…I hope my hair looked good!

For the second audition, I had created a story that was perfect (still have to hold it loosely) and I had a fun relationship with the other person in the spot. The experience will be pure gold for my acting career because of what the casting director said. “Stronger.” He kept saying he wanted me to be “Stronger, show me that military authority you see in your husband.” Do you know what I did? Something so incredibly stupid. I joked. And acted like I was a big deal. Because it was a “fun” audition, I was being “funny.” I wish I had just seriously listened and showed him the strength that I do have. But I didn’t. It will prove very valuable in the future.

I talked to my mom on the phone on the way home and she went on about how I can be very intense when I’m talking about the Lord or my mission trip or anything like that which has value to me. That’s what she likes to see. That is strength. Not puffing up and saying, “Yeah, I OWN this store!” That was ridiculous and I wish the director had called me out on it, but he’s not my freaking babysitter.

Still, I am a perpetual optimist and I know for a fact I would be excellent for this commercial. So I’m going to practice some more. Just in case.



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